-// im trying not to fade away as we do;
im trying not to care as i find out more and more each day that you dont.

ITS TWENTY DAYS FROM NOW.

great. happily rambled this long entry and it disappeared.

bought new glamour! (aileen, i owe you. remind me!) its my new favourite mag. cos its gripping and everything i want in a magazine. (and it smells really nice too, dnt knw why) still buy teenvogue though. haha. mini mags rocks! :)
okay that was really cheesy.

hmm. hope to settle my dress tmrw. though greyish doesnt match baby baby pink..! tsk.

im totally loving without you by kimberly locke and clay aiken. i knw im slow but it suddenly appeals. like some magical broadway song. or some disney song composed for beauty and the beast. or sleeping beauty. yknow what i mean. mm. replaying and replaying it. haha

you tell me its okay.
it wasnt what i wanted to hear.
baby stop stinging.

anyway was watching spore idol..havent been catching that show for some time and ive never been a fan of sylvester (he really does look like a typical spore cheena guy whose favourite shirt would be a pink Pure Milk tee or something though it might not be the case) but i was so melting when he delivered his rendition of jay chou's song! jeez.

and the champion was so saddening! was like, trying not to cry (but to no avail) when that ah long and jingwen's dad died. sheesh. now jingwen is the sole breadwinner of the family! shes young, studying, teaching swimming lessons, in a swim team and has to provide for her 2 other siblings! i'd like, die. and shes really pretty, that jeanette aw. only 3 more episodes to the finale! thank goodness toro found out that yilin maligned fiona xie regarding the stupid steroids.
hmm.

and just because someone loves you doesnt mean you do. just because you dont doesnt mean they arent the nicest you'd ever get. they usually are. just because you like someone doesnt mean they really do too. just because youre used to being treated like the people in the first genre do means they are like that too. theyre usually not.
mm. anyway.

wanted to say something but i forgot.
what was it??

Usher
There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
You never see it coming,
cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me,
it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

Alicia
I don't know about y'all
but I know about us and uhh
it's the only way we know how to rock

ooh! i finally recalled whats the smell ive been sniffing at home. its my lancome! shall go back to using that trusty ol' scent. growing kinda sick of RL blue. (btw RL blue for males rocks rocks rocks)

haha! i discovered the ability to conceal. magic blog. quite fun!
mm. ignore me.

im in a terrible crappy mood. just typing whatever i feel like typing. the points dont even link. haha. on quite a roll.

nana : thanks for asking and being there. i really really needed it (though practically nobody else seems to care to knw what it is that i need..) ok nvm. im depressed. or maybe im just trying not to be depressed. mm i dno. anw, you arh. im not little twit k. box you.